by Chris Koellhoffer, IHM, February 12, 2017
A new year often brings resolutions designed to promote our well-being and good health. Perhaps more exercise. More regular sleep. More attentiveness to our diet, with changes reflecting healthy eating patterns. We may plunge into January with enthusiasm and resolve, and then sometimes notice a lessening of commitment as the days move forward.
At least, that’s what I observed about my own diet recently, although in a somewhat different way. After weeks of companioning and listening to so many people who, saturated by world news, shared their anguish, their fear, their anger, their dismay at deepening attitudes of exclusion towards the most vulnerable and fragile people in our world, I began to experience an indigestion of sorts, an agita that was both physical and spiritual. How did I not realize that I had been eating a woefully unbalanced diet, heavy on cynicism and despair and light on all the things that animate and inspire?
One Saturday afternoon, I had the television on while a figure skating program played out in the background. I wasn’t really watching it because I was focused on working on a project, but my attention abruptly changed when an ethereal piece of music began to play. I stopped what I was doing and looked up immediately. The beauty I heard invited my full attention. It was a Shawshank moment.
In one of my favorite films, “The Shawshank Redemption,” Andy Dufresne, a cultured man of refined tastes, is wrongly convicted of murder and sentenced to life in Shawshank prison. For a man of his background, the experience of brutality, violence, and absolute lack of the beautiful makes prison life excruciatingly painful. Day after day, year after year, the same deadly routine, the same dull shade of despair.
One day, after months of requesting funds to update the prison library, Andy receives a donation, boxes of books and music. He immediately takes out a record, leans back in a chair, and plays “Duettino – Sull ‘Aria” from The Marriage of Figaro. Then, in quiet defiance of the prison authorities, he locks the office door and turns on the public address system so the music pours out into the entire prison. The soaring, operatic voices penetrate every cell, float out over the prison yard and into the infirmary. Longtime inmates stop in their tracks and let the music wash over them. Hardened faces become soft and tender. Not a muscle moves, not a word is spoken as the music saturates each inmate. For a moment, Shawshank prison and everyone in it is transformed.
My Shawshank moment came at a time when hauntingly beautiful music grabbed my soul and transported me beyond the figure skating program on TV. The music invited me into an epiphany of sorts, for, like Andy Dufresne, I was also being held captive. I was imprisoned by a daily diet of news that trumpeted fear mongering and enemy-making, by feelings of helplessness, by an overwhelming sense of our collective paralysis to change direction. I needed to break out of this prison and feed myself with other sources of nourishment. I needed a change of diet. More engaged prayer. More thoughtful tending to my longing and hunger for the Holy. Upping my dose of connection to those who work for justice and embody peace. Increasing my daily intake of the arts, of music and dance and poetry and painting, food that offers a more hope-filled response to the wounds of our world.
So with God’s grace, I’m adjusting my daily diet. I’m eating more beauty and hope and tenderness and welcome. Care to try this menu with me?
Create a meal of the beautiful. Arrange a bouquet of flowers. Play a piece of instrumental music. Read some inspiring words of poetry out loud. Gaze at a work of art. Walk under a canopy of trees. Savor stillness.
After a period of absorbing and digesting what’s before you and around you, take some time to reflect:
Give thanks for all that is beautiful in your life.
How has the experience of beauty changed you and set you free?
Hold in your prayer those whose worldview is limited by despair or fear of change and of fresh thinking.
NOTE: Please remember in your prayer all who will be part of a retreat day, “Taking Heart,” that I’ll be facilitating at Our Lady of Grace Center, Manhasset, NY, February 18. Many thanks!
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10 thoughts on “Changing the Menu”
A superb commentary dear Chris. You have found me in my own poor diet. I had begun to refrain from the food that has been causing me my own agita, but hadn’t yet partaken of enough of the foods that would rebuild its depleted state. Save the blessed walks among the Eagles and the river which did help maintain my daily bread!
Thanks for reminding me that it’s all about balance, Linda. May you be nourished many times over by that beautiful daily bread you find in the air and in the water. Walk on!
Reading this was part of my Shawshank Moment – it brought me into the recognition of what ails us. You just nailed it and captured the feelings of angst building in our hearts. Like Linda, morning walks, listening to music as I go, and just noticing all around me have been moments to take me away from the ugliness of heart that seems to weigh us down. Thank you!
Thank you, Kathy, for all the beauty that you call our attention to in this world. So happy to witness that since our paths intersected.
Dear Chris, Thank you for your thought-full writing…it always makes me stop and ponder… Janet
Be kind to each other.
Janet, I’m grateful for the kindness of your words and your good company on this journey!
Thank you Chris for this thought-provoking and inspiring reflection. I hadn’t realized until I exhaled at its conclusion, that I’d held my breath throughout. With its release, tears rolled down my cheeks for all imprisoned in darkness and desolation. A prayer of praise rose from within… for God’s beauty and bounty in the universe, for artists, poets, musicians, writers and dear friends. A familiar prayer before meals welled up inside, surprising me…Bless us O Lord for these thy gifts…a new twist to a daily prayer.
Nan, thanks for sharing the new twist to our traditional “Grace.” And I join with you in praying it while noticing and keeping my focus on what is good and beautiful in our world.
I really enjoyed this one, Christine. We hear so much negative news and forget the beauty around us. We are lucky to spend our winters in Maui where beauty is all around. I will definitely concentrate on the peacefulness here and the beauty of God’s creation. Have a great day.
I’m imagining winters in Maui, Kathy, and all that natural beauty, lush greenery, ocean waves, and more. How wonderful to have that gift as well as the gift of a grateful heart. Have a great day also.